I'm feeling really sick today, my co-worker will not cover my shift because, like always, he was out drinking all night. Do things ever actually go the way the should in life?

mood: sick

Well, I moved back to my parents house in the stix. No cable internet service available out here :/ My PPC 6800 smart phone on the other had has an unlimited data plan and internet sharing, with a fairly quick EVDO internet connection. That alone had about a 700k download speed, and 102k upload. Then my parents lab top, uses a verizon AIR card, a revision A EVDO cellular internet connection, It's a little faster than my phone, and I've been using it for the most part. With it i got maybe another 100k upload and download. Then late at night, i can't sleep and something magical happens. I figure out haw to merge networks in vista. Boom 2 merged EVDO cellular based internet connections combined, and I beat rated speeds of basic tier residential Cable internet. SWEEEET! Granted, im going to pay my cell phone bill weather I had high speed internet on my computer or not, and my parents pay the verizon bill, otherwise, this would be the most expensive 2.2 mb/s internet out there.

The last few days have been a little rough for me. My relationship just ended and now I'm alone, I've been with him for almost a year now, and hate to say am amazed it lasted as long as it did. I really wish we where more compatible with each other. In the end though we both knew that even if we did drag it out longer, and worked as hard as we could, it still would have ended the same way. I don't hate him, as a matter of fact I do still love him, but I have to move on. I need to try and find someone I can hold onto for the right reasons. I've been trying to move on quickly but it hasn't been working, I find myself stuck in old pot holes. But I am getting there. This whole thing has left a lot of ends wide open, I won't leave him stranded and helpless. I only hope he's not mad at me, or upset with what I had to do, he still means a lot to me. I hope he finds happiness somewhere after this. I'm moving back in with my parents, at least for now, I don't have anywhere to go. I kinda feel a bit lonely too. I realize I can't expect everyone to run to me and make me happy, but the last couple days I've spent to much alone. I've tried to find friends to be with to keep me from feeling upset, but even thats be slipping away from me. Right now its time for me to figure myself out, handle my finances, focus on my life a bit more, and hopefully find a little more stability and balance. I don't know, I only hope I did the right thing....

And i have come to the conclusion that i am in fact very bored.

I know I don't post much, but I'm here, watching you, waiting for the right moment. Anyhow, things are going okay for me. I working, not for any of the jobs I thought I would. I have one job at an Internet gaming Cafe called Gametastic, I'm there IT tech. It's a cool place, between me, another employee, and the owners, its getting better too. Another thing I've been doing for money is IT field service work, I work for a company called EMT, but they haven't had much for any work to give me so far. But another company called prysim point technology's, came across my resume online, and has been offering me contract job right and left. There Easy job and pay a little more than the work justifies. A few days ago I earned $65 just to change out a DVD drive in a gateway. On top of that, I have taken a few automotive repair jobs on my free time. But right now I have a project car, I so far spent ~$700 on it total, after a few more slight repairs, it will be ready to sell for over $4000. But don't think I'm rich, so far I still don't have enough money to go around, some of the paychecks just haven't got to me yet.

Work life again, I do kind of miss it, this time I'll be working 2 jobs, but it doesn't look like either of these jobs are going to overload me. And so I sit at one of my jobs, fiddle around online, play some solitaire and chat.. Its not a hard job really, but its far from exciting. But on the bright side, im getting payed for what i was doing unemployed, all i have to do is a few ridiculously easy tasks every 30-40min. If your in the area you should check the place out, its pretty cool, Gametastics, 610 N. Alma school Rd. Chandler Az, 85224. 480-899-6280. They have high speed internet, tones of games to play on the network, online, or single player. Decent computers, plus plenty of energy drinks, and snacks to buy. Check it out!

mood: flirty tags: im bored enough to advertise my place of

Double your work load, double your fun
Double your income, with double job fun.

Seems I will have two jobs for a little while. I posted job, I posted about previously, and the new one I was hired for today. So not only am I an ON-CALL IT field service tech during some weekday business hours, but on some nights and weekends, I work at gametastics. It's A gaming LAN center near my house, where you can play computer games online or otherwise that you cannot play at home. They also have a projected screen that can be used for PC or console games. My job for them is going to be to run the store, as well as be the PC tech. Those of you near the Chandler area, you should check it out.

....finally.

I'm an IT field service technician, I provide service for company's that are contracted though my company. The company is called Eastman Modern Technology or EMT. Pays pretty good with decent benefits, and I choose which calls I want to respond to. I'm pretty much responsible for all the contracts in the east valley ranging from east phoenix to east mesa, as north as mesa to as far south as Maricopa. I'm always on call, so I may have to respond to some service calls on a moments notice. Job has plenty of good perks, and is almost guaranteed to offer me some awesome advancement opportunities. The owner of the company has already discussed putting me in a lead position, and giving me my own techs to work under me.

mood: energetic

I'm kinda depressed right now, I had a work related injury months ago, after fighting for ages trying to get the hospital bill payed for, witch is still in dispute, i get another $800 bill from the fire department that responded today. I quit the job in November, so there just doing there best to screw me over now, I also find that the medical insurance I had, and payed a great deal of money for ever check, only covered about 10% of such a bill, it was supposed to be a good insurance plan. Now I have no health insurance, I have lingering medical problems that I cannot tend to, and even better, the past months or so, I haven been feeling to good. It wasn't such a big deal at first, I passed it off and allergy's, or a cold, even if the symptoms didn't make sense. I would feel good for a few days, and then I would feel like crap a few days. I can't keep my apatite, even though im not even eating quite enough to maintain my weight. I rarely have energy, when im active, I feel like i constantly have a back cold or flu, and when im not, im constantly tired.

Today is about the worst day I've had in a while, I felt like crap today while i was active, though I had to fix my car, despite being sick, I couldn't eat my lunch my dad was nice enough to buy me, then i got home, and sat at my computer, and just trying to focus on the screen was making me dizzy. I felt drained, I figured it was due to a lack of sleep last night, so I went to bed at about 3-4pmish, woke up at almost 9pm. I was feeling a bit better at the time, I ate a little bit of pasta my mate was nice enough to make me, and went to my friends house. while i was there i managed to force myself to eat another small portion of food. and about midnight i wasnt feeling to good again, this time I blamed an upset stomach. Now once again, im drained for energy, unable focus on my monitor without getting dizzy, stomach is still to upset to eat, and I havent had nearly enough to eat today. and now I cant blame it on lack of sleep, im well rested. I dont have any strength or energy left, but im no where near tired enough to sleep.

I don't have a job to pay bills dive my car, by me food or anything. I don't have health insurance, I can't afford a doctor and i need a few doctors. The one thing I could use the most right now is an income, of any sort, and what seemed like a promising job search 2 weeks ago, seems to have mislead me down a million different dead ends. I have gotten over a dozen responses interested im me for a position, in many different places, asking for contact information, or a printable version of my resume, and then never call me or reply, or anything. I know these kind of things take time, but as many people showed interest, and seemed to want to hire me, I would have gotten some sort of response by now

mood: depressed

Been driving my bronco for a couple weeks while i took time to replace my transmission. I had to wait for parts to come in the mail, but I have her back nao!!

mood: excited

Well, after updating my online resume, I got a call tonight while sitting at a Denny's. Tomorrow I take an entry exam for a tech desk job at 2Wire. Its a typical tech desk job, not really. exciting. But the pay will be good enough, And I'll have full time hours. I would really love the job at the phoenix zoo that razzberyroo referred me to, but withe the credit card i have that needs to be payed, and the bills and expenses I need to cover, the pay there isn't going to cut it, especially being part time hours, on a temporary position. It's a shame I cant just simply do the job I would enjoy right now, but I suppose that is the reason I'm about to pay so much to go to school in May.

tags: new job

I was having a frustrating day today, so, i went to hang out with some friends to cheer me up. My car has almost 160k on it, the engine is lower miles out of a newer car, but the tranny and clutch are original. And in the past month it has started to just barley show, so MINOR wear, but nothing serious. was still shifting just fine, the syncros worked great, it just had a noisy low gear, that kinda thing would normally show up long before the tranny runs out of life. Well, After driving the thing for a couple hours, with no issues, I went around a corner, and it hesitated, just slightly going to second gear. I didn't think anything of it, aside from maybe i didn't shift it very well. then I shifted it to third, it made a minor slight grind as it went into gear, as if I has simply mishifted, but at this time I knew, it wasn't me. I let off the clutch and back onto the gas to find that third gear was not engaged any more, then as i shifted to neutral, it went into third and would no longer shift out of third. Basically put, I broke the shift fork inside the transmission, I have the choice of repairing this tranny, cost of doing this is generally not very effective on a high mileage tranny, i will proly default on my second and most common method, a low mileage used tranny.

to add even more pleasure to my day, I have to default to driving one of my other vehicles, I have a 1989 Ford bronco 4x4 for off road purposes, not the most economical, or user friendly daily driver. and I managed to tear one of my fingers wide open trying to put the removable rear seat back in the bronco. that hurts a little, and is a really annoying for sure. its bandaged up now, and will prolly swell, throb and hurt like hell tomorrow. Oh well, i'm a mechanic by trade, I've gotten used to it.

I love working with around animals, I find the extreamly interesting, and far to often understood. I have trouble working directly with some of them for reason easily explained. But I found a job I think I will be good at, and hope I get. After meeting, Raspberryroo at Denny's tonight, she told me about a temporary position at the Phoenix Zoo. Exhibit Guide, i would be responsible for Monitoring the public ensuring the safety of guests and animals, Explaining the rules of the exhibit and animal interaction to guests entering the exhibit and answering questions as guests exit, and things of that nature. I'm sure I would love the job, get to interact with people all day, and learn and talk about alot of different animals. She let me use her as a reference, I submitted my application, and now i wait, hoping that my application is decent enough for them to give me a call. the pay is what it is, and isn't that important, it gives me a paycheck, and it a temporary position, witch is perfect for me because of something else i'm excited about doing, im getting a higher education..

I took a tour of the University of Advancing Technology today, I have to say I was more than impressed with the school. It is an awesome place with alot to offer me, including a great education that will lead me to an almost definite, well paying, and extreamly rewarding career right out of school.. I know a local fur currently attending the school, and awesome and really nice person. It is very expensive as far as school goes, but a far better fit than the alternatives available to me. its year round so that I can get my degree on a more accelerated path. the programs they offer are exactly the kind of things i want to make a career of. I'm so excited about finally getting somewhere in life other than a dead end job. the only thing saddening me is the fact that I have to wait until may before I can get started at it. But the temporary position at the zoo will be perfectly suited for preparing for school.

theres so much i have to do yet, its a little overwhelming, im not used to this kind of organizing. I have to complete FASFA application, and find other methods of finachial aid , this school isnt cheap, but its perfect for me, and well worth the money. even though it's not required for admission, i intend to study for and take the SAT's.. i haven't been in school in a while, and as this is a university toward a degree, unlike devry or trade schools the like, i have to take all the math, English, writing, and such classes every other university degree requires. I don't want to set myself up for failure, and I do not want to find my math and English skills to be below standard, to wear i cant keep up, the SAT's are to make sure i'm still ready for college. I have discussed all this with my parents, and there more than happy to help me along the way, witch i am pleased to hear. And it was a nice feeling to see how excited and proud of me they where to see that I'm taking this route toward my future. I have mechanical, and technological skills, I could live my life off of if i so chose to, I can make an awesome mechanic, and work my way to a decent paying position in that field with gained experience alone. i could also bring some of my currently existing computer technology certifications up to date, and work on networks and computer hardware and things of that nature, and maybe develop a career that way. But this way seems to be a path to a more rewarding, more enjoyable, and better paying career.

I haven't been to active with my posts here in the past. I have been a little depressed, stressed out, and distracted with many different situations of my life. some of these things where my fault, and some of them completely beyond my control, and some of them where either unexpected, or just came at a bad time. but none the less, things are finally starting to get in order, I'm working taking better control of my own life and my own emotions. To great result, i'm doing a damn good job. I'm happy, i've learned alot about myself, others and life in general , and i'm moving in a directing in life that will take me somewhere that i want to be, feels good!

mood: and anxious

okay so the topic of furrys came up on one the car message boards i'm on. And we're having good fun about it.. anyhow, in a thread about an article that a member found http://www.boingboing.net/2008/01/13/ford-car-owners-are.html talking about how for is threatening to press charges against a mustang enthusiast group, for attempting to print up calenders of the groups cars... well you can read the article if your interested. I happen to be about one of the only ford driving members of the site, i was bound to see something from this....





... there it is, i broke my car at one of the group get together's, this is me under the hood of my 1998 ford escort zx2 ([TM]. Ford Motor Company 1998-2008)

I will miss my hair!